In my early twenties I realized something profound, that no matter what I accomplished in life, I would never be satisfied. I felt this feeling deep in my soul, after years of working in a profession I had dreamed of since a child. I just woke up one day and realized I was dissatisfied with life and had a feeling that I never world be.

I’m not sure if that was when I starting drinking alcoholically, but from that point on alcohol was the most important thing in my life. More important then relationships and most jobs, alcohol determined where I would go and what I would do. I was twenty four the first time an employer told me they were concerned about my drinking. It would be three more years before I even considered stopping and twelve more years before I would finally find the life I was searching for; a spiritual guide for my life and something bigger than myself to believe in.

Ever since I was a child, I felt as if there was an order in the universe; that something existed out there that was more powerful and wise than I was. Many afternoons I would spend sitting high in a tree and wondering what was “out there” beyond the clouds and the vast universe. I wasn’t sure if I believed in God, but I wanted to believe in something. Little did I realize that later in life my alcoholism would lead me to a spiritual life that is more fulfilling than anything I could have ever imagined.

At the age of thirty six, I finally accepted my alcoholism and truly sought everything I could learn about alcoholism treatment. What I found was a spiritual life that was the answer to everything I had ever dreamed of; a life full of purpose, gratitude, love, and happiness. Sobriety has given me a life worth living and the satisfaction with life I had always dreamed of having.